St Vincent’s Hospital (7) — Going Home

St V’s has done all it can for me; I sense that. It’s not my decision however. The Neurosurgeon has the magic power to say his work is done; I can go home. He will do another CT scan Monday to look at my head and see if it is normal enough for me to be discharged. I can hear a few of my cynical friends saying, “Jim, normal?”

But the desire to go home is building and, in a way, dealing with the frustrating slow process of discharge is as hard as anything else I have faced. I want to be back in my own place, with Hacy and Oscar. They know exactly what kind of TLC I  require! Not saying the nurses at St V’s aren’t wonderful; it’s just that I am in love in a deeper way that they can’t satisfy. That is the realization I have come too; home is where you are loved most deeply and where your whole being (mind, body and spirit) is nourished. Of course that got me thinking. How does this happen?

The universe is love!

The famous physicist Nikolai Tesla said, “If you want to understand the universe, think of energy, vibrations and frequency.”  With the advent of human understanding that all matter, indeed gravity and space-time itself, is “quantum” in nature, Tesla’s summary is accurate, as far as it goes. But love is left out of physics — and yet obviously love exists. How to relate physics and love?

There are two basic possibilities:

  • Love is a form of some property that physics has already identified — say a particular kind of vibration that travels freely in the universe. “Good vibrations” are spoken of commonly today, meaning “I’m sending my love to you.”
  • Love is beyond physics and its measurements. What ever love is, it acts beyond the limits of physics and  its understanding of the universe. The poets struggle to find metaphors for this transcendent love we all experience. “My love is like a red, red rose” “Love is a many splendored thing.” 

Love is mysterious and impossible to grasp — just like God. So we easily believe that God is love. We don’t need theologians to prove this to us; it is built in to our longings and hope. It is as if we are beings made to love and we experience ‘cognitive dissonance’ when we aren’t embraced in love. So what is the relationship between physics and love?

An analogy that helps me is — Architect (Creator) and Object (that which meets the Architect’s intentions.) If you hire an Architect to design your ideal house, he or she will try to discern your deepest longings and needs, and go beyond mere function. “What do you want your home to be, not just what it looks like?”

God the Architect created the universe (Object) to be a home for human beings, and his most basic intention was that love be the prime ‘force’ energizing everything. Why? Because love is his own nature and he wants us to transform the universe and bring it to him as a gift. He actually entered the universe to help human beings accomplish this. Physics is man’s use of his knowledge to understand this reality but, thus far, physics and metaphysics (Beyond physics) have not found a good way to collaborate, at least in some people’s mind’s. That is a maturity problem which will be resolved in time.

So when I say I want to go home, I’m saying that my home in Sydney, and my fellow Christians at St Peters in Surry Hills, and my worldwide mountain climbing team of family and friends, await me. I need their love to recover and I’m 100% confident that it’s there waiting. This is the way God made the universe. It’s as close to God that I can experience until the day Jesus carries me home to God beyond this universe.

4 Replies to “St Vincent’s Hospital (7) — Going Home”

  1. Jim, thank you for sharing this experience with us. I can only imagine how anxious you are to get home and be in familiar surroundings amongst people you love who love you back. It sounds like you were very fortunate to have wonderful care in the hospital though. I love reading your blogs because, I too, am a deep thinker. But I think when it comes to love, we need not over-think it; you are correct when you say that it is “mysterious and impossible to grasp”. Love changes people lives and makes miracles happen. Without it we are nothing. And with it, we have all we really need.

  2. Dearest Jim,
    You have been in my thoughts and prayers and I’m so pleased to read in your latest blog that you are getting to go home. Love surrounds you and is definately there to aid your recovery.
    Louise x

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